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Thursday, June 30 @ 10:11 PM
YAY HOLIDAYS, THANK THE LORDDD! It'll be a good two weeks (hopefully). I have a feeling it will be. My horoscopes said I will be enjoying luxury or some shit and I haveto multitask to get things done. Lol. I'm so bored and tired! I told my mum to buy pads and I said clearly 'with WINGS' and she comes home with pads without wings and says 'oops', grrrr -.-
YAY HOLIDAYS, THANK THE LORDDD! It'll be a good two weeks (hopefully). I have a feeling it will be. My horoscopes said I will be enjoying luxury or some shit and I haveto multitask to get things done. Lol. I'm so bored and tired! I told my mum to buy pads and I said clearly 'with WINGS' and she comes home with pads without wings and says 'oops', grrrr -.-
Monday, June 27 @ 6:24 PM
Not many people care. Most are just curious.
Not many people care. Most are just curious.
Thursday, June 23 @ 5:55 PM
@ 4:28 PM
WHAT I LIKE/LOVE in alphabet
Animals, asian food, acrylic nails, alcohol, anime
Breakfast, bathbombs, bags, BEACH, bunny rabbits, bronzer, boots
City lights, chanel, CAMPFIRES, cupcakes, cinemas, cartoons, childhood, candles, cheese
Dessert, dreamcatchers, diamantes (anything covered in it), Desperate Housewives
EARRINGS, eyeliner, eyeshadow, eyelashes, Eminem
Food, FLUFFY (anything warm and fluffy), fragrances, fruitboxes (or fruit poppers w/e)
God, glitter, Gossip Girl, graffitti art
Holidays, home, highlighters, hermit crabs
Icecream, ipod, IPHONE, interior design
Japanese kitchenware, jumpers, Jersey Shore
Krispy kreme donuts, kisses
Late nights, LIP BALM, lipstick, Lauren Conrad, Leonardo DiCaprio
MAKEUP, money, Melanie Iglesias, macaroons, moustaches (fake not real), miu miu handbags
Nails, nailpolish, nightlife
Olives (in greek salad only, with feta cheese)
Post-it notes, perfume, pizza, productive days, puppies, PINK, pajamas, picnics
Quotes
RINGS, ROLLERCOASTERS (amusement park rides in general), roses, red
Shiny things, skincare products, SUNNY DAYS (warm but not hot), shoes, SHOPPING
Tea, turquoise, tv, tumblr, tshirts, The Big Bang Theory (not science stuff, the show lol)
UGGS
Vagina, lots of it HAHAH jk
Warm soup, wallets,
Xylophones (lol jk idk)
Year six, year seven, year eight, youtube
Zebra print (on furniture, bedsheets, random items)
'what i dislike/hate/or fear in alphabet' is coming up. :)
WHAT I LIKE/LOVE in alphabet
Animals, asian food, acrylic nails, alcohol, anime
Breakfast, bathbombs, bags, BEACH, bunny rabbits, bronzer, boots
City lights, chanel, CAMPFIRES, cupcakes, cinemas, cartoons, childhood, candles, cheese
Dessert, dreamcatchers, diamantes (anything covered in it), Desperate Housewives
EARRINGS, eyeliner, eyeshadow, eyelashes, Eminem
Food, FLUFFY (anything warm and fluffy), fragrances, fruitboxes (or fruit poppers w/e)
God, glitter, Gossip Girl, graffitti art
Holidays, home, highlighters, hermit crabs
Icecream, ipod, IPHONE, interior design
Japanese kitchenware, jumpers, Jersey Shore
Krispy kreme donuts, kisses
Late nights, LIP BALM, lipstick, Lauren Conrad, Leonardo DiCaprio
MAKEUP, money, Melanie Iglesias, macaroons, moustaches (fake not real), miu miu handbags
Nails, nailpolish, nightlife
Olives (in greek salad only, with feta cheese)
Post-it notes, perfume, pizza, productive days, puppies, PINK, pajamas, picnics
Quotes
RINGS, ROLLERCOASTERS (amusement park rides in general), roses, red
Shiny things, skincare products, SUNNY DAYS (warm but not hot), shoes, SHOPPING
Tea, turquoise, tv, tumblr, tshirts, The Big Bang Theory (not science stuff, the show lol)
UGGS
Vagina, lots of it HAHAH jk
Warm soup, wallets,
Xylophones (lol jk idk)
Year six, year seven, year eight, youtube
Zebra print (on furniture, bedsheets, random items)
'what i dislike/hate/or fear in alphabet' is coming up. :)
Tuesday, June 21 @ 7:40 PM
Saturday, June 18 @ 10:20 PM
Wow I had a pretty productive day today *clap clap. First of all, WOOHOO I got my iphone!!! I've got to wait 5-10 working days to be able to actually use it though, cos they gotta activate the sim or some crap. And then I wanted to spend my $50 myer giftcard which I've been meaning to spend since Christmas last year. Finally spent it at Top Ryde. Then shopped around with my dearest mum and got home around 4 and fucken rushed like a crazy bitch to freshen up and get out the door and make my train to the city. YAY I CUT MY HAIR OMFGGG I'M IN TEARS BRO. Been meaning to cut it since forever. Last time they fucked it so bad. Ahh, I love how soft your hair feels after going to the hairdressers and getting treatment, washed, blowdried, and straightened. :') AND HAHA RACHAEL WASHED IT AND DID THE TREATMENT FOR ME! Full pro and shit, with some apron thing at Shauns shop. Then we went shopping around town hall, and ate at Pepper Lunch omnomnom. Oh how I love mid-year sales. :) :) And so, now I'm at home, all comfy and warm hehehe :D.
OH NOOOOO, gotta do my english assignment tomorrow ugh cbf.
Wow I had a pretty productive day today *clap clap. First of all, WOOHOO I got my iphone!!! I've got to wait 5-10 working days to be able to actually use it though, cos they gotta activate the sim or some crap. And then I wanted to spend my $50 myer giftcard which I've been meaning to spend since Christmas last year. Finally spent it at Top Ryde. Then shopped around with my dearest mum and got home around 4 and fucken rushed like a crazy bitch to freshen up and get out the door and make my train to the city. YAY I CUT MY HAIR OMFGGG I'M IN TEARS BRO. Been meaning to cut it since forever. Last time they fucked it so bad. Ahh, I love how soft your hair feels after going to the hairdressers and getting treatment, washed, blowdried, and straightened. :') AND HAHA RACHAEL WASHED IT AND DID THE TREATMENT FOR ME! Full pro and shit, with some apron thing at Shauns shop. Then we went shopping around town hall, and ate at Pepper Lunch omnomnom. Oh how I love mid-year sales. :) :) And so, now I'm at home, all comfy and warm hehehe :D.
OH NOOOOO, gotta do my english assignment tomorrow ugh cbf.
Wednesday, June 15 @ 5:25 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. ♥
I wrote 39 on her card, but turns out she actually turned 38 lol oops. I got her angry bird plushies hehehehe. And this little silver circle thing that warms up when you plug it into the laptop so you can put your cup of coffee ontop and it keeps it warm for however long you want. How cool! I think I'll be the one using it more often!
Omg it has been damn cold lately. I hate rain, ughhh. I couldn't even find an umbrella this morning so I had to risk my precious body while walking to school! Would of much rather had stayed home today, but I went anyway, for the sake of keeping my mum happy on her birthday. I can't wait for Summer. I can't wait to go to the beach on a boiling hot day. Last Summer I went beach quite alot, but each time it was unluckily not very sunny, and infact kind of chilly. >_> Beach is so much more fun and happy when it's like 35 degrees. I can't wait for holidays! School is so boring! Same shit everyday. I HAVE SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS IT'S CRAZY. I have two English assignments all due next week sometime, and I don't have a clue how to do either.
I still havn't got my iphone. Ahhhh. I can get it anytime after the 17th, so I guess.. hopefully I'll be getting it these weekends? ALSOOO I hope I'm getting a HAIRCUT these weekends!!! I've been wanting one for months. Rachael better be able to get me a discount at Shauns shop! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. ♥
I wrote 39 on her card, but turns out she actually turned 38 lol oops. I got her angry bird plushies hehehehe. And this little silver circle thing that warms up when you plug it into the laptop so you can put your cup of coffee ontop and it keeps it warm for however long you want. How cool! I think I'll be the one using it more often!
Omg it has been damn cold lately. I hate rain, ughhh. I couldn't even find an umbrella this morning so I had to risk my precious body while walking to school! Would of much rather had stayed home today, but I went anyway, for the sake of keeping my mum happy on her birthday. I can't wait for Summer. I can't wait to go to the beach on a boiling hot day. Last Summer I went beach quite alot, but each time it was unluckily not very sunny, and infact kind of chilly. >_> Beach is so much more fun and happy when it's like 35 degrees. I can't wait for holidays! School is so boring! Same shit everyday. I HAVE SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS IT'S CRAZY. I have two English assignments all due next week sometime, and I don't have a clue how to do either.
I still havn't got my iphone. Ahhhh. I can get it anytime after the 17th, so I guess.. hopefully I'll be getting it these weekends? ALSOOO I hope I'm getting a HAIRCUT these weekends!!! I've been wanting one for months. Rachael better be able to get me a discount at Shauns shop! :)
Sunday, June 12 @ 5:17 PM
"That girl who smiles and laughs at everything may be crying herself to sleep every night."
"That girl who smiles and laughs at everything may be crying herself to sleep every night."
Tuesday, June 7 @ 8:59 PM
Omg I'm really a weird person. I just went a read my blog posts from like 6 months back and shit haha. I seem to have typed happier in my posts back then LOL. Actually, I'm still weird now. I'll always be weird. I guess I have accepted that. 8) And I bet whoever is reading this right now is agreeing that I'm weird. Am I right, am I? 8)
I had a pretty alright weekends.. so I just thought I'd let everyone know that lol. It's not very often I have an alright weekend lol. BUT HOPEFULLY THIS WEEKENDS COMING UP WILL BE BETTER BECAUSE I THINK I'M GETTING MY IPHONE!!! I think..? :S *Crosses fingers.
But omg I don't know if I should get it anymore!
Pros: Ipod and phone all in one (I hate carrying an ipod and phone seperately). You get all these apps and games. Front camera (yes that can be important ok).
Cons: Shit reception, right? And the screen cracks easily if you drop it! (I'm a clutz btw).
I KINDA WANT A BLACKBERRY BOLD.
Omg I'm really a weird person. I just went a read my blog posts from like 6 months back and shit haha. I seem to have typed happier in my posts back then LOL. Actually, I'm still weird now. I'll always be weird. I guess I have accepted that. 8) And I bet whoever is reading this right now is agreeing that I'm weird. Am I right, am I? 8)
I had a pretty alright weekends.. so I just thought I'd let everyone know that lol. It's not very often I have an alright weekend lol. BUT HOPEFULLY THIS WEEKENDS COMING UP WILL BE BETTER BECAUSE I THINK I'M GETTING MY IPHONE!!! I think..? :S *Crosses fingers.
But omg I don't know if I should get it anymore!
Pros: Ipod and phone all in one (I hate carrying an ipod and phone seperately). You get all these apps and games. Front camera (yes that can be important ok).
Cons: Shit reception, right? And the screen cracks easily if you drop it! (I'm a clutz btw).
I KINDA WANT A BLACKBERRY BOLD.
Friday, June 3 @ 1:10 AM
I guess I only have myself to blame for being in this state of mind, and being at this place I am now. But I think I've suffered enough. What happens when I can't stand living like this anymore? What happens when I can't stop my heart from aching when I remember how happy and lively I used to be? What happens after I've spent a little too long not being able to let go? What do I do when I cannot look forward because there is nothing to look forward to? I wish I could say that isn't true, but sadly I feel like it is. I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick of this sinking feeling in my heart everytime I'm reminded of how easy life used to be. Does anyone else get that feeling? A year ago, I would of been completely ignorant and probably have laughed if someone had told me that they could physically feel their heart sink when they think of something sad. But it's different now. I get that feeling. Has anyone noticed my state of mind lately? I doubt it. I never speak up. I can't. Does anyone even understand what the fuck I'm even talking about right now? I'm so messed up. What are friends? Hmm.. I wouldn't know,
I don't have any.. anymore.
I guess I only have myself to blame for being in this state of mind, and being at this place I am now. But I think I've suffered enough. What happens when I can't stand living like this anymore? What happens when I can't stop my heart from aching when I remember how happy and lively I used to be? What happens after I've spent a little too long not being able to let go? What do I do when I cannot look forward because there is nothing to look forward to? I wish I could say that isn't true, but sadly I feel like it is. I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick of this sinking feeling in my heart everytime I'm reminded of how easy life used to be. Does anyone else get that feeling? A year ago, I would of been completely ignorant and probably have laughed if someone had told me that they could physically feel their heart sink when they think of something sad. But it's different now. I get that feeling. Has anyone noticed my state of mind lately? I doubt it. I never speak up. I can't. Does anyone even understand what the fuck I'm even talking about right now? I'm so messed up. What are friends? Hmm.. I wouldn't know,
I don't have any.. anymore.
Thursday, June 2 @ 5:33 PM
I know the pain will never go away but I guess I've learnt to deal with it.
I know the pain will never go away but I guess I've learnt to deal with it.