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Friday, June 3 @ 1:10 AM
I guess I only have myself to blame for being in this state of mind, and being at this place I am now. But I think I've suffered enough. What happens when I can't stand living like this anymore? What happens when I can't stop my heart from aching when I remember how happy and lively I used to be? What happens after I've spent a little too long not being able to let go? What do I do when I cannot look forward because there is nothing to look forward to? I wish I could say that isn't true, but sadly I feel like it is. I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick of this sinking feeling in my heart everytime I'm reminded of how easy life used to be. Does anyone else get that feeling? A year ago, I would of been completely ignorant and probably have laughed if someone had told me that they could physically feel their heart sink when they think of something sad. But it's different now. I get that feeling. Has anyone noticed my state of mind lately? I doubt it. I never speak up. I can't. Does anyone even understand what the fuck I'm even talking about right now? I'm so messed up. What are friends? Hmm.. I wouldn't know,
I don't have any.. anymore.
I guess I only have myself to blame for being in this state of mind, and being at this place I am now. But I think I've suffered enough. What happens when I can't stand living like this anymore? What happens when I can't stop my heart from aching when I remember how happy and lively I used to be? What happens after I've spent a little too long not being able to let go? What do I do when I cannot look forward because there is nothing to look forward to? I wish I could say that isn't true, but sadly I feel like it is. I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick of this sinking feeling in my heart everytime I'm reminded of how easy life used to be. Does anyone else get that feeling? A year ago, I would of been completely ignorant and probably have laughed if someone had told me that they could physically feel their heart sink when they think of something sad. But it's different now. I get that feeling. Has anyone noticed my state of mind lately? I doubt it. I never speak up. I can't. Does anyone even understand what the fuck I'm even talking about right now? I'm so messed up. What are friends? Hmm.. I wouldn't know,
I don't have any.. anymore.